Monthly Archives: July 2012

A Trip Down Memory Lane

I’ve yet to do a ‘slideshow’ of my LM as he’s grown… so I’m gonna put em up here today :) Yeah it’s some in your face my kid’s the cutest ever, but don’t you agree?! (And if you don’t, just don’t tell me!)

And for the record, YES I was obsessed with pictures – I kind of still am, but not as much. Kind of. From the first month, I had LM to the studio once a month, on his ‘month-day’ for pics, because lil ones grow and change pretty fast! I also had them do roughly the same pose each time so I could ‘see’ the changes… (Am I a total nerd or do other mommies do this too?!) I wanted to  have the memories of it all… Then once he turned One, I backed off to just twice a year: family pictures at Christmas (so, just me n him lol), and pictures at his birthday.

(Side note: I love love love my birthday (the ides of June!). I learned at an early age how perfect it was, because I got presents at least every six months – for my birthday and then Christmas. I’m blessed to share a month with my LM, our birthdays are only 4 days apart… so I’m sure he’ll figure the presents thing out young too ;) ANYWAY, to tie this side note into my picture story,  is just that it’s really good timing for twice a year pictures. So we get something new every six months. I guess I’ll probably keep doing it until LM’s 18 or so…Or until he just flat refuses to go anymore ;)

Back to my pictures… check out this progression – I love having the pictures of each step of the way, it’s like going back and watching him grow!

One month old

One month, July 2008

Two months old

Two months, Aug 2008

Three months old

Three months, Sept 2008

Four months old

Four months, Oct 2008

First Halloween, 10/08

(Bonus pic!) First Halloween, Oct 2008

Five months old

Five months, Nov 2008

FIve months

(Bonus pic!) Five months, Nov 2008

Six months old

Six months, Dec 2008

Seven months old

Seven months, Jan 2009 (he turned into such a lil butterball! Ha!)

Eight months old

Eight months, Feb 2009 (I love this shirt, I totally kept it for my next son!)

Nine months old

Nine months, Mar 2009

Ten months old

Ten months, April 2009

Eleven months old

Eleven months, May 2009

He's one!

One year old, June 2009

Mommy and me class

1 year 3 months, Sept 2009 (Mommy & Me class)

One and a half years, Christmas

1-1/2 years, Christmas pics, Dec 2009

22 months old

22 months, Mother’s Day, April 2010

Two years old

Two years, June 2010

First school picture

Junior’s first school picture, 2 years 4 months, October 2010

Christmas 2010

Christmas picture with mommy, 2-1/2 years, Dec 2010

First ride

(Bonus pic!) First horseback ride, April 2011

First Clairemont pic

Spring portraits at Clairemont Emmanuel, 2 years 11 months, May 2011

Three years old

Three years, June 2011

Fall portraits at Clairemont Emmanuel, 3 years 5 months old, Nov  2011

Fall portraits at Clairemont Emmanuel, 3 years 5 months, Nov 2011

Christmas 2011

Christmas, 3- 1/2 years, Dec 2011

Four years old

Still can’t believe he’s FOUR years old! June 2012

I just love my LM to pieces! Watching him grow and get smarter (he’s uh, really smart kid)… he’ll be starting pre-k this year ACK! I feel so blessed to be his mommy, he is the light of my world. :)

I must think of something really good for my next post… hmmmmmm……


I Got Tagged for 12 Things

12 Things

Thank you to my lovely friend Sarah over at Be Here. Be You. for tagging me for a fun post! Yesit was a long time ago, but better late than never! I’m going to, in turn, tag two of my favorite bloggers who I’d love to see post the 12 Things! Sunny, over at Sunny Larson Tells it All (simply because her blogging CRACKS ME UP, she’s in your face awesome) and Katie at Chocolate Covered Katie. :) (I know you’re insanely busy Katie, so if you don’t have time, I’d understand…!)

There are five rules:

1. Post these rules.

2. Post a picture of yourself and 12 random things.

3. Answer the questions set for the original post.

4. Create 12 new questions and tag people to answer them.

5. Go to their blog/twitter/Facebook and tell them you’ve tagged them.

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12 Random Things About Me

1. I really hate my feet. My second toes are longer than my big toes – like 1/2″ longer, they’re dumb. And I had really bad ingrown toenails as a young child so had surgery on my toes and now my toenails are shaped funny and people are always pointing it out.  I will totally have cosmetic surgery on my feet someday.

2. I love love love horses and horseback riding. I once saw a rider on horseback go past my house when I was a child and ran out and got on my bike and followed them home, and ended up getting to ride!

3. I’ve always named my cars (but one). I’ve owned Susie, Katar, Beethoven, Savannah, Dory, Cujo and Cheiron. (There was my Buick which had no name cause I never could think of one!), and now I have Echraidhe. I even name my (computer) hard drives (nerd? lol), Kiki and Lisanthus. I’m weird I know.

4. I’m very very very allergic to bees n other stingy lil dudes.  I once stepped on a bee when I was younger and got blood poisoning, my leg turned like, black, almost to the knee. Gross. I carry Epi-pens now. (I’m terrified of wasps. Not kidding, they freak-me-the-hell-out.)

5. I have a tattoo ‘scene’ that starts on my right upper arm and goes up over my shoulder and almost all the way to my right hip. It’s been “In progress” for over 10 years. I wish I had a ton of money (and time) to get it FINISHED! I also have a tattoo on each ankle, one on my stomach, and one on each wrist. I’ve designed probably 95% of my tattoos myself. No, I’m not done. Yes I will get more.

6. I hate wearing shoes and wouldn’t ever wear them if I could get away with it…. thank God for flip flops, it’s the closest I can get to being barefoot all the time! (Weird even to me, considering #1)

7. I really love to cook. I love trying new recipes and making up my own. Especially baking. :)

8. The nickname that has stuck with the the longest in life so far, not counting my initials or a shortening of my actual name, is Punky. :)

9. I want to visit Australia more than any other place in the world (with a stop in New Zealand of course!) I want to go for at least a month, and spend time in the Outback, and see all the crazy wonderful creatures – platypus, koala, echidna, kangeroos, etc. in their natural habitats!

10. Davy Jones is (was) my favorite Monkee. I’m really very sad that he died earlier this year. :(

11. I want at least TWO harlequin Great Danes someday. It’s my dream dog, I’ve always wanted one, for as long as I can ever remember.  I would also like an English Mastiff or two.  Yep, I like enormous dogs. (You did see #2, right? lol)

12. I wear lil white gloves when I read, or watch movies. Yep gloves. If I don’t, I trash my fingernails, without even thinking about it, I just get tense and pick at them. I’ll look down and suddenly they’re all ripped to pieces. SO…. I have to wear gloves. I’m a weirdo, I know.

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Questions I was tagged to answer:

1. If money, schooling, or time was no obstacle, what career would you choose? I would like to be a large animal (including exotics) veterinarian for an animal rescue or reserve.

2. What’s the one thing you look forward to everyday? Lately? More sleep! Just can’t seem to get rested these days.

3. What is the most important quality you look for in a friend? OOOOooh that’s a hard one actually…Trust. I think you can build other things from there, but if you haven’t got trust it’s doomed.

4. Biggest pet peeve? Being lied to.

5. What is your all-time, favorite book? A good week for me consists of finishing 3-5 books, and I’ve bene doing it a LONG time. I honestly couldn’t pick ONE favorite book. I love books, love to read… I love so many – I can’t pick just one.

6. What would your “last meal” be? Baked potato with all the fixins (butter, melted cheeze, scallions, bac’n bits, etc.) some crazy good tender seitan roast with an obscene amount of gravy, and probably… green beans & tomato slices sprinked with nooch. That sounds fantastic.

7. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope. I believe in ‘connections’ at first sight… definitely lust at first sight, but I don’t think real love. You can’t truly love someone you don’t know, so… yeah. Not so much.

8. What would your ideal Sunday morning consist of? Sleeping in until 9 or so, pancakes and scramble with faux-sages, fresh orange/pineapple juice for breakfast, someone else cleaning my house… and watching a movie snuggled on the couch.

9. Who is your favorite band and what were you doing when you discovered them? Ohhhh… I may never get this post posted if I have to really put an answer here… I’m not a big music buff. Um. I like many artists… probably my favorite band is Godsmack. And I don’t remember what I was doing when I first heard them but the song was Voodoo. I have all their albums. I don’t have all the albums or any other band or artist.

10. If you had to choose one color to pick forever, what would you pick? Well, can I have different shades of it? :) Purple.

11. Do you believe in soul mates? Kind of but not exactly… I think it’s possible that there are people out there that we match up with yes, (not that we’ll ever necessarily find them!), but I definitely don’t think there is only one for each of us or anything.

12. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? Well I’ve not lived too many places, so to pick one would be totally guessing… but I’d guess probably somewhere in the US, because for all the problems we still are a pretty damn free country … but I’d live away from a metro area. Close to one, so I could get necessities, and have access to an airport, etc… but definitely out in the country on a seriously huge piece of land with a seriously awesome house (designed by me of course), with horses, and a swimming pool and all kinds of room for all kinds of animals (cause I’d probably end up rescuing a Ton of them)!

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Questions for the ladies I’ve tagged:

1. Whats’ the one thing you’ve done that you’re most proud of ?

2. If you could be taller or shorter which would you choose to be?

3. What kind of pets do you have; if none what would you like to have?

4. What’s your favorite season and why?

5. What is your dream vacation (if money was no object)?

6. What is your favorite smell, and why?

7. Do you like to read, and if so, what do you read most?

8. Do have children or if not, do you want to someday (how many)?

9. What’s the one biggest thing you would change about your life?

10. Do you have a bff, and if so, what do you like best about them?

11. What’s your favorite fruit, and why?

12. Why is the first thing you notice about men?


Ugh… Fail?

So far in 2012, (in no particular order):

  • I have failed at maintaining a long distance relationship :( And that one hurts.
  • I (feel like I) have failed at creating a loving mom and dad family for my precious son (so far anyway).
  • I have not only failed at my weight loss goal, I have gained almost 15 pounds since January.
  • I have failed to find a new job here in Texas since our move (so far, I am still working on this!).
  • I have failed to find any sort of consistent playgroup for my lil man, so we haven’t met too many new people yet.
  • I have failed at creating the perfect, respectful, mannerly 4 year old boy (some days he just goes ape-crazy and this is true I swear).
  • Etc… etc…. etc…..

Overreacting? Ok, maybe I am. BUT, it’s how I’ve been feeling. I feel overwhelmed by the things I’ve NOT been able to accomplish; things which appear hopeless for the foreseeable future. Smushed into all these feelings is the struggle with being alone and lonely in a new place, to figure out how to blend into a new city, find new friends, find a church, find my LM a preschool, find myself something productive to do with my days… Sorting all this out by myself is a LOT overwhelming. Some mornings I wake up and feel I crushed by the weight of it.

Sometimes I find myself wallowing in the “I don’t have (yets),” the “When will this ever happens,” and the “Why can’t I’s.” I don’t particularly care for the feeling it gives me but there I find myself time and again. What. The. Hell.

Can anyone say Pity Party? I just wanna smack myself upside the head sometimes.

BUT….. how do ya get out of a hole once you find yourself so deep in one? I’m still working on that. In the last couple weeks:

  • I have been twice now to a church I like, so far… I’ll keep going until I don’t like it (and if that happens I’ll try yet another one).
  • I might have found LM (that’s my son, LM = Little Man for those of you wondering!) a school that I can afford and that has an opening for him for this fall.
  • I have found a renewed sense of self-worth and esteem that has me back on a healthier track for my weight and body (and, overall  health-related) goals.
  • I have figured out some ways to work with my LM to generate respectful, mannerly behavior (and they kinda work, this is going to be an ongoing deal, I know that!)
  • I am trying to come to terms with the job market and what I’m looking for and feeling blessed that I get some unemployment from the great job I had in CA to tide us over (Thank you Lord!)
  • I am learning to talk about what’s wrong to someone (usually my mom, sorry mom!) even if it means morphing into a sobbing mess JUST to get it OUT instead of IN.

Sometimes there’s advice in the asking, sometimes assistance, sometimes just comfort… and I SUCK at the asking. I’m a bottler, have been for as long as I can remember. Prefer to hold things in, until they just can’t hold in anymore. But…. yeah.. that’s not such a good idea, like, ever. I don’t like it, I’m just not good at reaching out. If anyone has some advice on getting better with reaching out, please feel free to share. :)

I guess I’m just… I’m trying not to feel like a FAIL. It’s a step up to even feel like a WORK-IN-PROGRESS, right? I’m learning to be a little more comfortable with being a W-I-P. Huh…I guess that’s my first PASS!

Yeah I know this post was rambling, but I just felt like I had something to talk about today, and it wasn’t very well thought out ahead of time. Sometimes that’s just how it is. :) I’ll try to think ahead for next time… and I’ll keep workin’ on this thing called life, and prayin for strength to keep this up alone – for awhile anyway… Cause there’s gotta be better things to come. I just know it.

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I think next time I’ll write about the books I’ve been reading. I’m almost to like 40 books since June 15 when I really got started reading again. Yep, I think I’ll make a list. :) AND I’m waaaayyyyyy over due on posting some new pics. Here’s a preview:

Mommy n Lil Man birthday pics in June

Stay tuned!


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