Pre-Valentines Day

I’d a whole deal planned to post, about the making/baking/prepping I’ve been doing the past few days, the plans for this week, fun recipes… blah blah blah. You get the idea… and then, had an argument for a dumb reason and here I sit freaking crying about it and feeling NOT a whole lot like blogging about some stupid cookies.

Then I read this post by my friend Sarah and the crying continued, as just I felt lonely and pissed at myself for having a stupid argument with my Valentine (and not much feeling like even having Valentines Day now, which is even more stupid – have I ever mentioned I have a hard time getting un-upset?).  Sarah makes a point that “We say hurtful things and stupid things and lovely things at all times because we feel safe to speak our minds.” But what about when it isn’t ok?  When it causes more harm than good?  What then.  When the love isn’t long enough or strong enough to make it ‘okay’. What then? Well I guess we hope that involved parties all let it go huh. Not like we’re ever all gonna just agree and be happy. We will not ever all “just get along”…. not really. 

*SIGH*  So much for fun, lovey, mushy, valentines-ey feelings.  I sure do hope I feel better about this tomorrow.

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Ho hum…. SO…. I guess I ought to stick these treats in here, since I went to all the trouble to make them and all! (And since I’m eating one I’ve cookie on the brain again…)

First of all, I made some chocolate and carob ‘candy hearts’ – chocolate for the grown ups and carob for lil man

(I've never had them separate like this, not sure why they did this time; looks kinda cool though!)

Love these, but they are a tad melty, even at room temp, must adjust recipe...)

**MUAH!**

(This was the leftover chocolate went into a lil dish of walnut-coconut fudge)

 Also made a modified version of CCK’s Deep Dish Cookie Pie, which was… um… insanely delicious.  I am ashamed to say this but in the interest of plugging Katie’s recipe (as if she needed my help!?) I ate half the pie by myself!  I even gave my lil man pie for breakfast two days in a row in an effort to get rid of some of it. It’s crazy good y’all. Just be warned!

I, 1. didn’t have any chocolate chips (they’re not safe from me, I don’t keep them around unless I have a specific baking need!), and 2. I didn’t really want to use chocolate so that I could share with lil man, so I used the leftover liquid carob from the candy hearts and poured it in the middle.  I just put about half the mixture into the baking dish,

then poured in the carob sauce and smoothed it around,

added a lil layer of chopped walnuts,

and then poured the rest of the cookie mixture on top. 

Smoothed it to the edges and baked!

I canNOT imagine this actually made with chocolate chips. I’d probably eat the whole thing. And my waistline can’t handle that so… yeah not a good idea!  When you’re pretty much cooking for one… cut recipes in half… (or 8ths? Lol)

That was all on Saturday. And yes, I pawned off as much of that pie as I could to my resident omni-guy (who kept going back into the dish with a fork anyway!) so I’d stop eating it!

Tonight I got home from work and cleaned the kitchen so I could make a new mess, as I was signed up for cookies for the party at the preschool tomorrow. Ya know, lemme just share with you something I never knew as a kid. Sugar cookies are a pain in the ass. They take a LONG time to make, and need a crapload of lead time as the dough has to get cold in the fridge before you can cut it! Is lame.  NOT to mention, the last 3 times I’ve been to WF they’ve been out of red food coloring, I have no sprinkles and ONE heart shaped cookie cutter which is HUGE. These are for 3 year olds for pete’s sake. I can’t bring in adult palm sized cookies. Sheesh. But so yeah anyway, I wanted to make cutesy valentin-ey heart cookies or something but, yeah, didn’t happen.   SO I got out my go-to Chip Cookie recipe. I call it that because I usually make up the dough and then cut it in half, adding carob chips to half and chocolate to the other. That way LM (lil man) and I each get some.

So this time I made 1/2 carob chip and 1/2 chocolate chip w/walnuts. Mmm baked goods + nuts = heavenly. Anywho – yeah they came out damn good if I don’t say so myself.

AND… just like the stinkin Pie, I am going to have to pawn a majority of these away or I’ll eat them all. I have no willpower, hey at least I can admit it. Some foods are just not safe in my house! Chocolate… cookies… peanut/almond/any nut butter. Yeah, it’s awful I know.

I did get us some cutesy valentin-ey shtuff though, I’ll put them up AFTER. So there.

(Nope, didn't actually get this but had to share, isn't it the cutest apron ever!?)

OMG I’m tired, I did NOT sleep well last night, and dammit if I might have eaten too much sugar with the baking going on that I might not sleep so well tonight either… plus the arguing.. &*@$&*#@$. My mind tumbles. BUT I must make the attempt anyway.

Happy Freakin  St. Valentine’s Day folks! Eat a crap load of chocolate, say Thank you to a few people, say I Love You to as many as possible, give some hugs, hopefully give some kisses, and try to enjoy the company of someone who makes you feel FREAKING AWESOME. Hope you have a GREAT love-filled Day… I’m sure gonna try.

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I’ll leave off with this picture just because I can – and it’s making me smile right now, which I needed.